I did think I'd have a reason to update this

~Sprout,

Why'd you have to do that? Just beacuse I poked fun at your nappy whore!?
Why'd you have to go there... beyond apologies. You went where I cant forgive you now. Fuck! I was on your side, I wanted peace, and for my son to have a father. But you just HAD to fuck it all up, to protect your bitch. Ha, maybe thats what you wanted, for me to push you away, clearly you had no intentions on being a father. Not to this baby anyway... your probably already working on a baby with her. To be honest, I really hope you are, and marry the bitch too...

More Lyrics!!!!

JOHN LEGEND "ORDINARY PEOPLE":

Girl I'm in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday.

I know I misbehave
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow



We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow )
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow )
This time we'll take it slow



This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
We head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way


I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
But as our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay


We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow )
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow )
This time we'll take it slow



Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe you'll never find
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I



We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go(hey)
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow )
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow )
This time we'll take it slow
take it sloww
take it slow
this time we'll take it slow

Eljay

I advocate writing how you feel in your own shit (LJ). Express yourself. Show how you feel in your backgrounds, your entry's even your icon's. But know this... be prepared to face the consequences of pissing people off. You might not be able to bounce back.
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Eh.... Loser #2

Okay... so Im guilty too. I dont ALWAYS think before I let my feelings loose. Im not always tactful. I think about lost romance too much. It doesn't make sence. It hurts... I guess its okay for me to feel sad about it, but, ITS OVER. Its been over for a while now. Our past romance is irrelavant... We're not even friends anymore. Im scared, I want your attention, I need your help, but, I don't want your pitty. I miss not hating you. I want to talk without walking on eggshells. I want to like you again. I need to trust you again, but Im not sure if you care enough to earn my trust back. I want to see you smile, I want to smile back. Sometimes I think I'd like to be your friend. Though, I admit... I dont want to see you build something with her after I've invested so much in you. I guess I still love you. DAMMIT! Im still so jealous, so weak, so pathetic.
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Loser

How am I doing? Fucking Miserable. Devestated. Alone. Scared.
But you don't care, if you did I'd know it.
Life is short. Too short for me to lie to myself. Too short for me to claim that I dont hold a place in my heart just for you. Life is also too short for me to waist time kicking a dead horse. My feelings will fade. That place in my heart will be filled by the best of you (our child). You..... do what you want. Work really hard at being a "daddy" to your "little girl"..... Chanti. After all how can our baby compete with a whore like that. If thats what you want, If thats how you like it, What I have to offer you, will never make you happy. I was the first to call you daddy.... because it actually MEANT something to me (something more than twisted dominatrix role play). But, I see now, you dont want the responsibility of a WOMAN, a little girl suits you. I wanted so much more than THIS.
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Cant stop

"Cant Stop"

I cut through your shell
Im under your skin
In the stories you tell
Im where you begin
I make you weak
Just by being a friend
In the words that you speak
Im where you end
You shut me out
Avoid speaking my name
But, without a doubt
Im still in your brain
You want it to be through
When its only begun
You're my disease too
Aswell, I wish it were done
How can this be?
What steps will we take?
I love what's in me
But, did we make a mistake?
You feel so burned out
I feel it kick
My patience is thin
But, my belly is thick
Something bigger than us
will arrive in short time
And, nothing can change that
Not even a rhyme

Birth

Lop sided contractions are aiding my insomnia. I can't sleep like that. I dont think I can make it 2 more months. If this ginormous baby filled bubble gets any bigger Im going to die.
Man... then again Im not sure if I want it out... Im scared to have another kid on my own. I cant even imagine what its gonna be like.

I need pot.
Why did I quit smoking pot?
I want weed so bad I could just eat a plate full of it!
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My moment in the sun

Ha! ...Who woulda thought ME to be the least bit vain? I actually considered myself quite the opposite up until recently. I thought I had low self esteem, and all those other fantastic traits that come with the depressed, scorned woman package. But, to my surprise... IM FUCKING SELF ABSORBED!

Not to say that currently I think I'm hot shit or anything. Actually it just occured to me that I was only shiting myself in the past when I thought things could get no worse. Because they HAVE.

See... Before I was just in pain and heart-ache, but at least people listened to my bitchy sob stories ... Now I still have pain, but no one gives a shit!

Thusly, the fact that I've noticed the lack of attention makes me self centered!

Sooo... since no one is paying attention.

I THINK IM GOING TO SHIT ON THE FLOOR AND BLAME IT ON THE DOG!
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